Lasting Fight

I keep tying to do what I think is right and listen to others that tell what might help, but when it comes to your mother Im lost. Your young and dont know me how you should, thats both of us for that matter, but i dont want to fight disagree or dont not like your mother... Im not confused... No no wait I am confused, ive made mistakes have lots of things I wish and want to go make and do different and change. None of which are you, I love you and happy your here. But today my world is dropped out from under my feet. And that happens from time to time and you need to just push thru. I am scared to see you right now do to my past envolement in this situation, but I want to see you, but I sit here wanting to fight but not knowing how. Funny I think if i told you that you have the smartest logical answer of what to just do. I love you ~DAD